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Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Level II Ultrasound Part 2

And still no PICTURES!!! Can you say bad US tech again :(

But she passed with an A+ - so she has all her important parts and they measure and look normal. We could see a lot more when the doctor came in but it doesn't seem to be that "kind" of ultrasound - or maybe they figure you get to have more ultrasounds so they don't give you pictures?? She just wasn't being photogenic.

Weight is 1 lb 6 ounces and she is measuring 23 weeks and 5 days - so right where she should be.

Otherwise went well except I managed to gain 6 lbs since the 28th - so I get to go back in a week. Since I woke up with swollen feet/hands/face I don't think that my actual gain was 6 lbs - its a ton of water right now. This happened one day last week and it was better the next day.

Used the cpap machine for the first time last night...will take some time to get used to it. But I have high hopes of some wonderful slumber soon. I think I still work up 5 times last night but that is much less than what I've been doing. If I could go to normal pregnant lady slumber - I'd e ok.

We did ask about what to expect in terms of if we would have her early (as in need to have her early) - how late could she go - c-section vs. vag and all that.

Because of complex medical issues - his guess seemed to be slightly early but with an amnio to make sure her lungs are done cooking - so between 36-38 weeks. No c-section but more likely to end up with one - but also more likely to have complications because of it. So while I think I always thought I would rather have a c-section, I might actually want to try for a vag birth - as long as someone is going to PROMISE that there will be no scary tearing. Yikes!

So back in a week to check weight/water/and bp. But since bp is good its probably just the swelling.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

What can happen in a week?

1 - You can have swelling in your feet and legs (up to your butt) so badly that it doesn't go down overnight and seems to be getting progressively worse each day. Enough to make you check your blood pressure more often again- which seems a little high. So you call the doctor to see if you should be concerned...

2 - and you can end up only being about to work 1/2 days because you need more rest and that
sleep depravation is a big deal

3 - which is a joke because the ability to sleep has apparently taken a vacation - all you can do these days is fall asleep (while sitting up, peeing, almost in the car driving, in the car for a nap, at your desk, in front of the tv, in the bathtub, in front of the computer )- but you can't stay asleep. I immediately seem to go in to weird dreams where half the time you are talking in your sleep - flailing around with your arms - waking up still in the dream and yelling at Dan about something - or snoring so loud you wake yourself up. And this is with adding caffeine back @ work and in the AM to stay awake. You know its bad when you can fall asleep chewing gum - and still be chewing it when you wake up.

4 - there is just no rest - I never feel better - always some level of exhaustion from I can move slowly and slightly function to I just need to sit down- and then I got the call with the actual results of the sleep test - she said out of the 2:45 min I was watched without the mask - I "was asleep" 1:44 minutes and in that that time I had 122 episodes - where I stopped breathing - that would be one every 30 seconds. Well I guess that makes sense doesn't it.

5 - thank god the machine gets delivered on Tuesday morning. Considering how crappy its been this weekend I should have begged for it for Friday when they called. I seem to be adding some kind of anxiety to falling asleep or when I wake up. It makes you feel like you need a mental hospital at moments. So tired and you can't sleep .

6 - While I got the doctors note to be on 1/2 bed rest on Tuesday - I was told by work that I couldn't start it until disability approved it. That didn't make sense to me because what if something happened and they told me to work - then they are responsible and when I asked again on Thursday there was a sudden back track - because I told them the doctors office was upset that I wasn't following the orders. Needless to say they are not happy and so far have shown little concern for anything other than how it is inconvenient for them, not that they taken any work away and I actually worked all morning on Friday from home.

Not surprising but when I uttered the words " I am not trying to mess things up just trying to have a chance at a healthy baby" (when I asked about the 1/2 time work on Thursday). I was told, well you ARE messing things up. My jaw dropped but then I realized that this was the same person who told me I should have told her we were trying to get pregnant in the interview. Right.

So basically the hope is that the cpap machine will make all things better in a few weeks and I will start feeling better. Please, please, please.

We have another ultrasound on the 5th and I am hoping she will be more viable this time. She has been moving around a lot and even Dan could feel her. Which makes my heart sing. We watched a moving last night where a teen aged girls said "I love you Daddy" and I started crying - because someday our girl is going to say that to Dan. How cool is that? I can not wait!

Belly is growing - and I've had weird belly button pains that I think mean its moving out! EEK. My baby girdle thing STILL hasn't come and its bumming me out. Stupid mail.

Almost 24 weeks. I have to say I am happy we are here and every day past this is a blessing. While getting to the end of this journey scares me because I feel like there is a perfect time for her to be born and I want to make sure they hit the window for her safety. I am happy we are at the point now where she is viable and has a good chance of survival. We were talking about how we can't believe that its almost the third trimester and look how fast this one went!

OMG she is going to be here before we know it! I can not wait!!!!!!